Things could be so tough at times, but alhamdulillah I could managed them somehow.... Today one of my darlings is leaving this university. I cried. She's a nice and kindhearted girl from the land of mortar and violence, yet she managed herself to be softspoken and subtle. I like her, as my betfriend comes from the same land and we used to go to the same all-girl's party. I'm gonna miss her. There is a similarity between me and her. She was sad because her parents died in the car crash few years back and eventhough she's holding a good degree in her hands, she wouldn't be able to share the joy with them..after all those years.... And what about me? Alhamdulillah I still have my parents , but thing becomes cranky when it comes to my ex ... Ah, I wish....2 years back, we were waiting drop dead for this moment, where we would be able to stay under one roof and share the life's ups and downs. But now, things are different...graduating is becoming so scarry and horrible fo me. I'm leaving all the good old days behind..my bestfriends, my life..my freedom, my sanctuary. Without we realized, this place has become our scantuary for the past 4 years. we grow to be an individu here..right here..with some many obstacles, and sublime intimate problems, I managed to go on and now here I am..on the edge of my graduation..I should be so happy and relieved..if the situation still be the same as 2 years ago, I would have jumped up and down to celebrate my graduation. My heart is thumping and I'm so scared of loosing all the privileges I had here. Now, I can bluntly say that I dont want to graduate....but what a selfish asshole am I? My mom is sick and I need to come home soon. Please God, save me from this overwhelming pain.. I'm loosing my self... I need someone to stay beside me and tells me that everything will just fine.. Just fine like one sunday afternoon... How I wish |
